My how time flies while one is not working one’s program!

I started out with a lot of momentum doing my Step Work every day, checking in here every day, and I was doing pretty good with my new food plan.  Last weekend it all went out of the window and I reverted back to my old die hard habits.  And yet the whole time I am continuously trying to remind myself that I am slowly killing myself.  I AM committing suicide – just taking the long road around to the final breath.

A friend of mine and I went to the Bellows Falls OA meeting Monday night for the first time.  I did feel some hope at that meeting.  At the same time, I felt a lot of apprehension, disbelief, etc.

Anyway, I am going to go back over all the emails my sponsor sent out to me and a couple of her other sponsees and see if I can get back on track.

I feel like such a loser.  😦